times flies .. nearing end of 2015

Time flies. 

In a glimpse of an eye, this year is nearing its end. 

If I were to think back, what had happened during this year round, what was accomplished, what was missed out, I wondered if I can really recall every single bits of them. 

I truly doubt so.

In another two weeks time, we will be bidding farewell to 2015 and gearing up to welcome 2016. It somehow makes me wondered, what were I thinking or feeling back then, last year of this day. Were I too busy then to even give any thought of it? 

Looking back at my posts last year (glad that there were some posts), I roughly recollected how my 2014 went by, and also the last few days in 2014.

So, maybe I should also keep some memories of 2015 here, so that I can always jog back my memory when looking at my own posts.

So, how did my 2015 went by?

It started with the determination to change. Finally gathered the courage to leave the job not knowing whether there will be a new job or not. Gathered the courage to start on a different approach in family planning, though the previous year had been into it as well. Skipped a holiday plan again, even after planning it well ahead. If 2014 had been a year of frustration, then 2015 must be a year of confusion. 

Can also say that it is a year of changes, as I noticed that people around me are also making lots of changes in their life, too.

But for this last month of the year, I am still a busy person as I was last year, all frenzy about work. It makes me wondered, when can I be free from work frenzy, where at least there can be a balance in life. Maybe that should be my aim next year!

Well, hope I can continue to drop a note or two for the coming days, before end of this year. To keep more memories for this year. Till then.

think...

I'm thinking ... I'm considering ...  I'm envisioning ... I'm visualizing ... I'm concluding ...
With all those thinking need to be done, when will the actual work actually starts?

Sometimes, I am wondering if we have spend too much time thinking, and too less time working on the things itself. But sometimes, you would hear people said that, if things are well planned, work can be reduced (as in unnecessary work can be eliminated).Well, I wondered which one is correct. Or is it to say that, all things need to have its balance. Things need to be planned well, but at the same time, need to be worked on. Neither can be too excessive, else it will be off balance.

Recently, a physician just told me that I am thinking too much, as if my mind is too disturbed, not peaceful. I wondered, well, isn't our brain is function to do the thinking? If not, then what would the brain be used of. But, as I pondered over the statement again now, I wondered if the statement actually means something else. Just a quick browse through the net on this, and found abundant articles on it.
Thinking too much in TCM point of view is not good, as it is harmful to our body. It does not mean that one should stop thinking, but there may be some thinking that is not necessary (which some might be our habitual thinking only) and we should spend some time to unclog our brain and relax our mind.

So, what should I do now? Think or start work?
Well, I think I'll list out my work and do things in priority (but I doubt my mind will stop nagging me about the other things that are not done).
Guess we will need to find a way to balance our thinking and doing the actual work itself.

FIV (17)

It's been quite some time since I last posted on my second FET.

Wondered what is the result? Well, unfortunately, it is BFN. Had my blood test done on 2-Oct, result is very low, a the doc mentioned, and is almost like negative result. So, doc advice, to wait for another 3 days, if there's no menses, will do another blood test. And it's hard to know what the problem is, but doc advice, maybe can do laparoscopy and further check out.
But exactly on the third day, the menses came flowing.

Have to admit that it is downright disappointed. After so many medications and tests done, it still end up with negative result. Is it something that we have not detected, that causes the issue? Or is it god willing that it's not the time yet?

It's complicated.