Happy birth-day

Dad, happy birthday. Seems like everyone of us still remember your birthday, even though you have left us. Guess it's because it's one of the dates that we have kept celebrating since we started to have memories.

Just that I wondered if everyone still feel hurtful, when recalling about you? This none of us had ever mentioned or asked about. Some of us may have taken it well. But I don't know, why tears will just whelm up and rolled down, when I thought of you.

Still I'm sure all of us are actually glad that you do not have to suffer in this pandemic, which had you been well, it would be lonely for you, or else, we would not have been able to even send you off, had you been chosen to depart then.

Don't know what's next after death, but may peace be with you, wherever you are.

jittery

Feeling jittery and scary at the same time. Now get to roughly know the feel of those who got +ve for covid swab test or suspected for covid due to close contact nature.

The feel of lack of control and worrisome and speculations, all are in.

From the time you know you need to do a swab test, until the test is done, and the result is out, you think you have escape the torture after knowing your result is negative. But the fact that there are people around you tested positive at the same time, makes you wonder again if your test result will change anytime. There have been cases of asymptomatic or pre-symptomatic people, who never develop symptoms or those who later found to be positive, or even those that became super spreader in their community later on.

So, all please don't lower down your guard. If you do, make sure you are confined in your own living area. You will never know when it will be your turn, which hopefully won't ever. The taste of regret will be bitter and unforgettable. 

sleepless

Seldom there could be any sleepless night for me, as time and energy weren't even enough to spare during the day time, much less to say for the night.

This makes me recall the day I had a meal which triggered my memories and also myself to note down on my moments and memories. 

It sort of remind me, that I wished to remind my friends and family, and even acquaintances, that I do remember the times we spent, and though we might be far away from each other, or might even lost contact, I hope all are still well and still remember the good times we had. 

Food makes me recall of meal sessions and specific food can actually link my memory back to specific group of friends. 

Activities also makes me recall of various stuff, regardless indoor, outdoor, local, overseas - which can link back things done at different stages of age.

If to list down every single one of it, doubt I can even finish it in a day or two. 

I just hope to convey to those friends of mine and my families, I do cherish our moments. And if there's one day, if I ever forget you or if I ever depart first, may our good memories still linger around to be relished.