If we depart, wish you find another spouse who is an orphan, whom doesn't need to know how to work nor drive, so that she can be a 100% full housewife. Be she the one that does not have any opinions of herself that will neither defies you nor makes you angry. May you both have plenty of children that you wants, that will not act anything against your wishand follow your mood accordingly.
May God bless you.
And may God bless the day we depart from you.
Stay positive.. Stay positive..
Trying to pysco myself, for the sake of LO. Yet, I don't know how long I can last..
The cycle keeps repeating, I'm tired of it. When will it end? Do I have to be the one who end it? If yes, damn, I sure regret the decision I made 9 years ago.
God, whose test is this? I'm literally going nuts every time it happens. I'm not sure how long I can last. I'm breaking down soon. I almost broke down.
Stressed.. I'm feeling stressed.. Really feeling very stress..
Others might have wondered, "Why are you so stressed out? You don't really do much."
"Work?"
"Man, you should have know just to do what's within your scope. Everyone's doing theirs only, too. "
"Too much work? Feedback to your boss. We just work within working hours. Learn to delegate."
"We are all just taking salary, if work can't be done, there's nothing can be done then. We're being paid for the working hours only. No reason why you should work after working hours."
"Housework?"
"Hey, get a maid, give time to yourself."
"No maid, but ain't your spouse doing all the rest of the housework? You only cares for the kids, you should have lots of free time. How envious, all you need to do is only to care for your kids."
"Too much things to do?"
"Give priority. Those unimportant person or things, just put them aside. Those are just people or stuff temporary crossing your path, not that you'll need them, anyway."
"Priorities are only your closed family, first kids then spouse. The rest are actually not so important. Just meet or do them when you are free. They are around all time round, no hurry."
These are not the way I do things. That's not me. I cannot, and I simply can't follow it. That's not me!!!
Why, do I have to limit myself to do what others expect of me? Why is there even an expectation of me, which isn't even me.
I hate living within everyone else's expectations. Why can't I just do what I like?
Why not, just because there's a spouse and kids that I can no longer be me? Aren't they supposed to be my supportive aide instead of my prison?
