Three's a crowd

If one is lonely, two is a company, then three is a crowd.

It was really an eventful talk with these three. Unexpected crowd and yet was kinda proud of myself. And unbelievable that there is a fourth intending to join and a fifth withholding.
Boy, what a party.

I always know that if you ask for something, chances of getting it is higher. But if you never ask, chances is you will never get it.
Though I know I'm one of those kind that do not ask, so it's kinda touched to receive all those attentions. Guess, all the effort poured out all these years are worthwhile.
And it sure gives me additional comfort and support knowing that I may still be able to survive out there in the wilderness, though the path might get tougher as time goes by.

Happy as I am, I still feel bad to decline those earnest offers. But I would even feel worse for myself, if I just simply accept because fear of offending.
Doubt I can find any master to teach me on how to handle this, so I just gotta rely on myself.
But first, I need to understand myself. To understand yourself, then only you are able to have people understanding you.

Proud of you.
Will always support you on whatever decision you will make.

be at peace with yourself

Why do things seems to be so wrong?

Why do things seems to be so complicated?

Why do things seems to be so dull?

Of all the whys, why do we not ask, why are we not at peace?

We are not living alone in this world.

We are living with others, either in a hustle and bustle city, or a quiet countryside, with every kind of activities happening around us.

But why do we still feel irritated now and then, unsatisfied with this and that, feeling unease and insecure, so down and forlorn?

We need to be at peace with our ownself, in order to live peacefully. This is something we are not able to get from others, nor what others can give to us. This is something that only we ourselves, can achieve it.

So, why not start today?

Come to peace with yourself, and you can see the brighter side of the day, the greener side of the pasture, the gold at the end of the rainbow.

When you feel the peace within yourself, 

no matter how noisy the world is, it would still seem calm to you,

no matter how big your problem is, it would still seem small to you, 

no matter how heartbroken you are, it would still go away soon.

Be at peace with yourself.

leap of faith

It is time ...

Had take a big leap of faith recently, when I tender my resignation without a new job waiting. A scene which happened about 3 to 4 years ago, is being replayed again. This round, unlike the first, does not have a really good solid, un-rejectable reason.
Not to say my reason is flimsy, but it is just that I really feel it is time to let go and move on, before I sink myself further, not able to get myself out.

What makes me so persistent on my decision, when there might be other solutions or work around. That is what my boss asked me. Honestly speaking, I am truly grateful on the opportunity to talk with my boss, though the talk came late, and maybe I missed out a few points I wanted to highlight, but I am glad that it happened. At least it shows that all the effort I have poured in all these years, have not gone unnoticed, and is appreciated. That I guess is the best gift I get.
And I truly hope the issues and suggestion highlighted, will be seriously taken into consideration and planning, for the future newbies. All the best to them.

We all make decision all the time, sometimes on small and insignificant decision, sometimes on big and life-changing decision.
Whatever decision it may be, sometimes, we simply have to take a leap of faith, when things do not have a definite end result.
Whatever it may be, I will stick to myself till the end. And hope for the best.