Stay positive

Stay positive.. Stay positive..
Trying to pysco myself, for the sake of LO. Yet, I don't know how long I can last..

The cycle keeps repeating, I'm tired of it. When will it end? Do I have to be the one who end it? If yes, damn, I sure regret the decision I made 9 years ago.

God, whose test is this? I'm literally going nuts every time it happens. I'm not sure how long I can last. I'm breaking down soon. I almost broke down.