Sunday, August 15, 2021

a group of people

Have you ever wondered why human beings stay together? Hm, just like a flock of birds, a pack of wolves, a litter of puppies, a school of fish, etc. Of course, we do see there are some individuals who don't stay in a community, but we can say, it's really rare.
I think for us living together, it's because of the support system. Irregardless, whether because of financial needs, spiritual needs, emotional needs or etc. Living nowadays need money, unless one can self sustain in the wilderness or in the vast open ocean. Money need to be generated and replenished. Living means we will have families, friends, colleagues, superiors, subordinates, acquaintances, and etc. People have emotions and will be different when facing different things, unless we're trained to be an unemotional person. Well, I guess this kind of unemotional person may exists in the world, who knows, as this world is kinda big, too. Spiritually, is something cannot be forced, but coexist with us for a long long time.

Not sure if it's the way we were being brought up. While growing up, I'm sure we are not alone in the family, minimumly there would be a parent, even for those orphans, there would be a house of orphans growing up together. So, one cannot say he or she grew up alone. Therefore, we are used to having others around in our life, just whether we are open up with them, that's another story. But this means, similar to others, not everyone may be close to you, but there will be people that knows you exists. Why, because you were never alone from the start. 
Of course, one will always feel lonely, not because there are no people around you. It's because you, yourself, don't let people come in, into your life. Maybe, there are times indeed that you need to open up. We don't have a lot of 'seekers' in this world, that can go around to seek out every single loner in the world. But we sure do have quite a number of 'carers' in this world, who don't mind sharing their cares for those who need them. 

Thursday, August 5, 2021

wrap up

I guess, I've and I'm wrapped up in my own small world. Have been started, and quite obvious, ever since having 2 lo, and especially noticeable since this covid thingy started to hit us real bad and made us stuck at home.
I think I'm still playing ignorant, even I've just realised that recently. Can you imagine the social distance that everyone keep harping on for this covid, and this social distancing not only distancing the physical but emotion as well. 
I can't say that I'm isolating myself, but just found myself being less empathy and less understanding. I've been reading stories on others during this covid period, but can't just find myself fit in sometimes. I applaud to those still able to connect and still able to seek out others during this bad time but I seem to make myself a stranger, and looking at everyone from an outside world, while I'm busy with my own stuff. On and off though, I seem to still mingle around, but it just feel real for that few moments. And then, puff, it's gone. 
Not sure if wfh is making us feel so busy at home or it's just simply us being at home make us feel there are endless things that we can do or should be doing. Time is just there and gone. Shouldn't wfh make our time more flexible and manageable? Or am I the only one that doesn't know how to manage? Seem to lose the balance and everything seem to be just jumbled up. 
Miraculously, I'm still sane at the moment. Just dont know how long the sanity will survive. Or, even if it survived, will it be the same, or stronger, or broken? When things get tough, the tough gets going. 

May God bless us all.