Picture of you

There's a friend once asked that, why is there no photo of you in your apps. My answer is, "I'm still looking for myself. If I find one, I will upload it."

I'm not sure if this friend of mine understand what I'm trying to say. I was then still searching for my photo, which I'm not sure how long it has gone away, the one named self-confidence.

I think it went missing for quite some time, yet when it initially went lost, I was not aware of it. Until as time went by, then questions started to arise. Did it just go for a stroll, did it just go for a short getaway, will it find its own way back, will it come back soon, and so on and so forth.

I think sometimes I take it for granted as I thought it will just stay by my side all the time. But looks like I'm wrong about it. I did not fully understand about it. It also needs sufficient caring and nurturing in order for it to grow and stay. If lack of any, it will start to wander off, until you find ways to woo it back to your side again.

I guess, now I'm slowly working in wooing it back to my side again. Because, I have found the picture of me. Not sure how much it takes to keep it by my side, and till when. But I will give my best shot to let it know it's worthwhile being with me.

Have you found the picture of you?

We are one

Tick tock, tick tock, tick tock...
As times passes by, do you really know what is going on around you?

The world is so big out there, millions of people surviving each day creating their very own stories every second, hoping for their dreams to come true, interlinking with each other.
Though with the fact that we are all entangled with each other, we are actually having different interests, preferences and priorities, that make us live differently.

Some of us living within our own backyard, while some with bigger boundaries extending to a community, and some even all the way out to nation, countries or even universe.
Maybe because of the vast personalities that we have, and there are just simply just too much things going on at the same time, that sometimes we tend to live in our own way, not able to absorb everything that's going on (and never stopping).
We may now and then, try to search online on the sudden news we heard out of the blue, but most of us just simply do it in a "touch and go" manner. How many of us would actually try to analyse and understand in depth? Honestly, it might be quite impossible, as there would just be too much on the plate for us to digest all.
But to be able "touch and go" on most of the happening around is already quite a feat, as some would rather stay aloof.
Maybe, that's why there's a thing call discussion, small talks, chit chat. As one, how much things can we cover? But if there's more than one, surely, we are able cover more, to know more.

No matter how differently we lived, we are still under one roof (one world). So, sometimes, caring doesn't just stop at front door, but all the way to the other end of the world. Though we may be different, but we are one. We might not go through the same thing as you do, at the same time, but we will share the same joy and pain.
So, no one is alone in the world. There will always be someone out there, just reach out your hand, and you will find another hand reaching out for you, though sometimes it might take some time.

We are one.

Three's a crowd

If one is lonely, two is a company, then three is a crowd.

It was really an eventful talk with these three. Unexpected crowd and yet was kinda proud of myself. And unbelievable that there is a fourth intending to join and a fifth withholding.
Boy, what a party.

I always know that if you ask for something, chances of getting it is higher. But if you never ask, chances is you will never get it.
Though I know I'm one of those kind that do not ask, so it's kinda touched to receive all those attentions. Guess, all the effort poured out all these years are worthwhile.
And it sure gives me additional comfort and support knowing that I may still be able to survive out there in the wilderness, though the path might get tougher as time goes by.

Happy as I am, I still feel bad to decline those earnest offers. But I would even feel worse for myself, if I just simply accept because fear of offending.
Doubt I can find any master to teach me on how to handle this, so I just gotta rely on myself.
But first, I need to understand myself. To understand yourself, then only you are able to have people understanding you.

Proud of you.
Will always support you on whatever decision you will make.

be at peace with yourself

Why do things seems to be so wrong?

Why do things seems to be so complicated?

Why do things seems to be so dull?

Of all the whys, why do we not ask, why are we not at peace?

We are not living alone in this world.

We are living with others, either in a hustle and bustle city, or a quiet countryside, with every kind of activities happening around us.

But why do we still feel irritated now and then, unsatisfied with this and that, feeling unease and insecure, so down and forlorn?

We need to be at peace with our ownself, in order to live peacefully. This is something we are not able to get from others, nor what others can give to us. This is something that only we ourselves, can achieve it.

So, why not start today?

Come to peace with yourself, and you can see the brighter side of the day, the greener side of the pasture, the gold at the end of the rainbow.

When you feel the peace within yourself, 

no matter how noisy the world is, it would still seem calm to you,

no matter how big your problem is, it would still seem small to you, 

no matter how heartbroken you are, it would still go away soon.

Be at peace with yourself.

leap of faith

It is time ...

Had take a big leap of faith recently, when I tender my resignation without a new job waiting. A scene which happened about 3 to 4 years ago, is being replayed again. This round, unlike the first, does not have a really good solid, un-rejectable reason.
Not to say my reason is flimsy, but it is just that I really feel it is time to let go and move on, before I sink myself further, not able to get myself out.

What makes me so persistent on my decision, when there might be other solutions or work around. That is what my boss asked me. Honestly speaking, I am truly grateful on the opportunity to talk with my boss, though the talk came late, and maybe I missed out a few points I wanted to highlight, but I am glad that it happened. At least it shows that all the effort I have poured in all these years, have not gone unnoticed, and is appreciated. That I guess is the best gift I get.
And I truly hope the issues and suggestion highlighted, will be seriously taken into consideration and planning, for the future newbies. All the best to them.

We all make decision all the time, sometimes on small and insignificant decision, sometimes on big and life-changing decision.
Whatever decision it may be, sometimes, we simply have to take a leap of faith, when things do not have a definite end result.
Whatever it may be, I will stick to myself till the end. And hope for the best.

Out of the blue

Funnily enough, I find that most of the time I truly learnt something, is when I am reprimanding someone.
Though we often defend that we are learning all the time, but most of the time we are only seeing and hearing.
Message just pass by the brain but not significant enough for it to etch into our brain.
Do you feel the same way, too?

This reminds me of another thing, walk the talk. Sometimes, when we hear nagging too much, we often would mumble to ourselves that should let the speaker be in our shoes, to see from our perspective, and not just bragging off on what is the best practice.
If the one is to be in the same shoe, would the nagging still be the same?

Correct or not

Is it the correct?
Most people would ask this question. No matter what they do. While they are on the road, while they are choosing something, while they are trying to decide on something.

But I noticed that there are also a few that don't do that. Those who do not doubt themselves, those who don't mind taking the wrong turn which they know they can always turn around, those who dare to take calculated risk.

Which group do you belong to?

Sometimes, it is good to venture out of the comfort zone, making some wrong turns, laughing about your silly self. If we are too dead serious about life, we are not able to enjoy it.
Life is to experience, not to just walk through.