passed by unnoticed

So fast... It's already 4th day into the new year. What have I done for the passed three days? What have I accomplished? Have the days gone by unnoticed?

Weird to say that, I felt that I've done nothing, and I can only recalled unhappiness caused by the arguments. Though I know time had been spent with the kids, as they still need care and attention.

Will the rest of the 361 days just passed by the same way as well? I hope not. 

irresponsible

Talk about irresponsible.. What he said is not irresponsible? Simply said a statement to a kid, just to shoo them away, so that they won't bother his work.

Don't he know that what he said a child will remember forever. He also thought that a child forgets and forgotten, but sorry to say that it ain't the truth. Surprisingly, they remembered what hurt themthe most, even though they may not recall vividly. But their memories are there, and sometimes they might mix up old and new memories, but they never left. 

communism

Talk.. They say you should always talk out so that you know what is the problem and there would be no misunderstanding.

You know what I learnt, shut up. You should just shut up. To him, what you speak out is nonsense, no meaning underneath it. To him, he's always right. To him, you should never challenge back what he said, nothing at all.

So, why waste your breath at all. 

He said he'll listen if there's sense in what you say. But you know what? That will only happen, if the same word came out from a different mouth. Only then. Maybe there will be another scenario, after you're dead and he's reminiscing the memories, but still I doubt so. Since he never listen, he just hear.

People in our family don't live, they only have the option to obey (and he fully acknowledge on this). Talk about communism, ain't that sounds familiar.