bad parents

Are we the only bad parents around? Or is it that only our children are misbehave? Or is it really that all the other children are indeed angels? Else is it that the rest of the parents are actually angels in disguise?

I don't know what would our children be thinking of us as their parents when they grow up - verbal abusers? Physical abusers? Emotional monsters? Illogical monsters? Arghhh, it is really physically and mentally draining trying to cope with them.

I used to think my parents are monsters, too, typically my mom, guess because she's the household disciplinary teacher, no one is to go against her wishes, and no one is above her martial law. Her words are always the final one, irregardless of whether it is reasonable or not, not that she care though. 

Now, as a parent, I tried to be reasonable, giving all kind of explanations on why some things cannot be done, and why some things need to be done. But all fell into deaf ears. I felt as if all the efforts are going down into the drain, and it only works when the kiddos are being threaten.

Jeez, this ain't right, but what went wrong? I feel like burying myself in the pillow and scream my head off. What the hell is happening?

I can swear, all day long (and even night), you will only be hearing shouting, screaming, swearing and crying from my house, while the rest of the houses on the street are as quiet as an empty shell. Gosh, are my kids the only monsters on earth? Or, jeez, are we the only monsters on earth harming the innocent souls.

Parents' life with kids, is really ain't easy. 

who are you?

When we were younger, as a kid, we don't really define ourselves, as we are still struggling to catch up with the various hands-on day to day learning, trying to gain experience of growing up.

As we get older, as a parent, we don't have time to define ourselves, as we are struggling to juggle all the never ending responsibilities, trying to live through the day.

So, the best time of our lives to define ourselves, are actually during our prime years. 

And yet, those are the highlights of our life, as we are having the taste of freedom and ended up busy fascinating about this brand new world instead. 

Life is indeed short, and you will only say that after time passes you by. 

Define yourself, define your time, and you will find that time is actually waiting for you, waiting for the moment you realise who you really are. 

1 year passes by..

So fast, one year has gone by. You have now officially added one year to your age and started counting for the next one.

The same day of last year had been a long awaited day, on your arrival. And it went on with the sleepless night and juggling of the limited time on hand. Now sleep has roughly fall back to a better pattern, yet, hopefully still can be improved. Time is still an issue when comes to juggling between all the stuff that need to be done between family and work. 

May God bless.