think...

I'm thinking ... I'm considering ...  I'm envisioning ... I'm visualizing ... I'm concluding ...
With all those thinking need to be done, when will the actual work actually starts?

Sometimes, I am wondering if we have spend too much time thinking, and too less time working on the things itself. But sometimes, you would hear people said that, if things are well planned, work can be reduced (as in unnecessary work can be eliminated).Well, I wondered which one is correct. Or is it to say that, all things need to have its balance. Things need to be planned well, but at the same time, need to be worked on. Neither can be too excessive, else it will be off balance.

Recently, a physician just told me that I am thinking too much, as if my mind is too disturbed, not peaceful. I wondered, well, isn't our brain is function to do the thinking? If not, then what would the brain be used of. But, as I pondered over the statement again now, I wondered if the statement actually means something else. Just a quick browse through the net on this, and found abundant articles on it.
Thinking too much in TCM point of view is not good, as it is harmful to our body. It does not mean that one should stop thinking, but there may be some thinking that is not necessary (which some might be our habitual thinking only) and we should spend some time to unclog our brain and relax our mind.

So, what should I do now? Think or start work?
Well, I think I'll list out my work and do things in priority (but I doubt my mind will stop nagging me about the other things that are not done).
Guess we will need to find a way to balance our thinking and doing the actual work itself.

FIV (17)

It's been quite some time since I last posted on my second FET.

Wondered what is the result? Well, unfortunately, it is BFN. Had my blood test done on 2-Oct, result is very low, a the doc mentioned, and is almost like negative result. So, doc advice, to wait for another 3 days, if there's no menses, will do another blood test. And it's hard to know what the problem is, but doc advice, maybe can do laparoscopy and further check out.
But exactly on the third day, the menses came flowing.

Have to admit that it is downright disappointed. After so many medications and tests done, it still end up with negative result. Is it something that we have not detected, that causes the issue? Or is it god willing that it's not the time yet?

It's complicated.

Miss you..

Even though we know it is only being apart for the weekdays, and will meet again on weekends, but still actually start missing you the minute you are away.
Can't believe that the tears can't stop flowing all the way home.
Guess it's true that absence makes the heart grow fonder.

As this will be the way for the next 365 days, so we might as well make full use of these time and seek out the best of ourselves, while re-uniting during the weekends.
Hope you get to experience the new things that you've always wanted.
Take care, my dear.

Till we meet again. Love you and miss you.