The first and second usually are our parents, while the third usually would be our spouse in life. This might be exclusive for those with siblings and close relatives.
And what would it feel like to be crippled by the person you are supposed to be loved and trusted with?
Am I to say that I am lucky that I'm not physically crippled? But how does it feel instead to be emotionally and mentally crippled.
I've tried to be a bit more open up, at least within the family, so that I won't end up bottling everything inside me, and for those who knows me well, will know what my characteristics are. But now I can totally give up that idea, totally, and forever.
It's not the first time I tried, nor the second time. But as we know, once bitten, twice shy. I have enough, and enough is enough. I don't care now if you are totally unaware of my life outside home or inside my head, and not that you would care either. Then fine.
I'll just continue my life as it is, with a double persona. I'm used to it anyway, tried to change, but found no encouragement and received criticism, and find no reason to change now.
