Saturday, August 18, 2018

Fire fighting

Have you been reflecting on yourself recently?
Opps, it's not the time yet? Because it's not year end?
Well, yeah, we usually get this question during year end, before starting the new year, hoping that we reflected what went wrong during the year, and what we could improve for the new year.
Boy, is that what everyone does?

Sometimes I do wondered, what should I be working towards to my golden age. But, I am same as others, am already suffocating from daily worries, who cared about golden age, when the current problems we are facing are not resolved, and can't seem to resolve.
Fire fighting.
Isn't that what most companies are doing? We as employees for the company are employed as fire fighters.
But why are we bringing the same culture into our personal lives?
Dont you all remember hearing preaches about fire is dangerous, and don't play with fire, cause you'll end up burning yourself.
Well, it's true, isn't it?

So, do you really want to live your own life, as if you are doing fire fighting daily?
How long can you last, while fighting it daily?
Even fire fighters are teaching us precautions towards fire, because they really do know the danger of fire.

Think again, fire fighters of life.

Working half day?

Came across a video shared out on FB today. It's about Indian working culture, where people working within the working hours are considered slacking while those staying behind till wee hours are considered hardworking and competent.
I like the part where it mentioned that we are being paid for the working hours, and hours after that are our own time. And there are other lives outside of our working environment, which we should be spending with our loved ones, learning up other skills.

It's true that there is still this kind of culture existing. Everywhere. But we can see that newer generations are fighting against this old working culture. However, there are also people taking advantage of this fight, to their own personal advantage. But still, there should be indeed a balance for this, work-life balance.
One spends about 16 to 20 years in study life, another 30 to 40 years in working life. And our whole life may be around 80 to 90 years only. If we had only studied during our study life, and only worked during our work life, then what would have happened to us?
There will be no such thing as spending time with loved ones, no such thing as hobby, no family and friends.
Having family and friend is not by having them as acquaintances , but is by spending time with them to nurture the relationships.
Having hobby is not by learning words about it or looking at the pictures if it, but is by spending time to learn, practice and appreciate it.

So, take a look at yourself.
Where are you during the off working hours?
Have you been given your best during your working hours, so that you can get off work on time?
Have you been overloaded with work unnoticed?
You are the master of your time. Don't let others affect you, make your own priorities in life.

Devil festival

Devil festival - what kind of festival is that, I wondered. For so long I'd lived, I've never  heard of it. Ohh, could it be the seventh month festival, the so-called hungry ghost festival.
After re-reading through what mum wrote, yeah, I'm sure she's trying to say about the hungry ghost festival. Oh boy, what a word to use.

I had been thinking about dad just few days before mum mentioned about praying to him for the hungry ghost festival.
Ohh, and had I mentioned that I had thought of him as well just one or two days before T mentioned her flight back was cancelled.
Scenes of him on the last night in the hospital kept playing back in my mind. The alertness of his eyes, the haggard look of his face.

This will be first seventh month praying we'll be doing for him. I wondered how simple should we make it, especially this round is quite a last minute request and arrangement.
I was also wondering what dad would had expected from us. Would he be commenting as usual, that "come when you are free" , "just do it simple and get it done la", etc.

Well, I need to prop my head high on pillow and start planning on things to buy for the prayers. Nothing much left since the last prayer. Had thought that the last prayer was for the 100th days, and the next would be next year. So, was actually quite unprepared. Though, I'd thought before, if T had came back, I would have suggested a prayer when she is around.

Ahh, and last 2 weeks, one of the light bulb suddenly blew off in the old house - unexpectedly. Light bulb blewn off is in fact quite normal, but what was abnormal is that the (glass) lamp shattered as well, all around the floor. And I wondered what was it that had pissed dad off. Whoops, just a casual remark.

Well, time to ready for tomorrow's visit.