love-hate

It might sounds ridiculous, but I always had this thought that I am in a love-hate relationship. Lots of reasons to love him, and lots of reasons to hate him.

Hate him ordering me around. Hate him for picking on me. Hate him for making me to follow his way.
Yet, love him for giving in to me. Love him for being around. Love him for loving me.

If we ever have a few little ones of your version, hope that we can build up their characters way better than us. May they have fulfilling lives and learn what life means.

행복하니? Are you happy?

Haeng-bo-gha-ni? Are you happy?

A simple question, which should only have a simple answer. But some might just give a noncommittal answer, as they are also unsure of themselves. Of course, there are also lots whom are contented with their blessed lives. And not to leave out a minority who are adamant that they are not happy at all.

Well, for me, I am learning to be happy. Why? Because I should.

dream vs reality ... life

Reaching home after a tired day at work, parking the car while listening to the soothing music.

Open the house door, and switch on the music. Soothing music filling the house, while you ponder over what to have for dinner. Then, decided to take a warm shower instead. After shower, had a quick check in the kitchen, and pick on a quick simple meal to fill the stomach.

Nice music, warm food, relaxing mood.

Whammp! Back to reality.

Back from work late at night. Thought can make it home early today, but still need to work late. Worst is that work have yet complete before leaving office. Feeling sluggish and just wanted to have a good rest at home. But your whole mind is started to worry about what will happen tomorrow at work, even though the stomach is rumbling away. And your body just simply doesn't want to move an inch.

Tired mind, loads of work, defeated spirit.

Dream life vs Reality life. And who's having the higher score?

I wondered how many of us are living the dream life and how many in reality life. And those living in dream life, how do you make it happen. While those in reality life, how long can you survive?

Say It! What Are You Doing

A nice song from DOTS - the latest craze of K-drama.
Their OSTs are great, and really like this K. Will song.
Lyrics courtesy from http://onehallyu.com/topic/300776-kwills-ost-say-it-what-are-you-doing-lyrics-dots/
and http://ilyricsbuzz.com/2016/03/k-will-malhae-mwohae-lyrics-descendants-of-the-sun-ost.html

아무 말 없이 내게서커져만 가는 게
amu mal eopsi naegeseo keojyeoman ganeun ge

Without a word, feelings for you keep growing in my heart
아무래도 이대론 안 되겠어
amuraedo idaeron an doegesseo

Although I have thought a lot, it can't go on like this
어쩌다 내가 이렇게 네게 빠진 건지
eojjeoda naega ireohge nege ppajin geonji

What to do? How did I fall in love with you like this?
이유를 나도 모르겠어? 
iyureul nado moreugesseo

I don’t know the reason either

넌 왜 내게서 맴돌아
neon wae naegeseo maemdora

You! Why are you keep showing up around me?
뭘 해도 신경도 쓰이고 뭘 해도 궁금해지고I 
mwol haedo singyeongdo sseuigo mwol haedo gunggeumhaejigo

concern on whatever you do, I am curious whatever you do

넌 왜 내게서 맴돌아
neon wae naegeseo maemdora

You! Why are you keep showing up around me?
oh 어떡해 나 자꾸만 생각이나
oh eotteokhae na jakkuman saenggagina

Oh what should I do? I keep thinking about you

말해! 뭐해?, 말해! 뭐해?
malhae! mwohae?, malhae! mwohae?

Tell me, what are you doing?
이러다가 바보처럼 한눈팔게 하지 말고
ireodaga babocheoreom hannunpalge haji malgo

Please don’t just avoid me by looking at somewhere else like a fool like this

말해볼래, 말해볼래
malhaebollae, malhaebollae

Will you tell me?
나의 맘에 담긴 사람 you are my only one
naui mame damgin saram you are my only one

The one in my heart you are my only one

너무나 사랑을 해도 
neomuna sarangeul haedo

Though I love her very much
눈물 난다는 게 
nunmul nandaneun ge

She still cries
그런 말이 나 이해가 되지 않아
geureon mari na ihaega doeji anha

I cant understand such words
하지만 그댈 본 순간
hajiman geudael bon sungan

But the moment I see her
두 눈 가득 고인 
du nun gadeuk goin

Her teary eyes
눈물이 사랑인 것 같아
nunmuri sarangin geot gata

They seem like tears of love

넌 왜 내게서 맴돌아 
neon wae naegeseo maemdora

You! Why are you keep showing up around me?
뭘 해도 신경도 쓰이고 뭘 해도 궁금해지고I
mwol haedo singyeongdo sseuigo mwol haedo gunggeumhaejigo

concern whatever you do, I am curious whatever you do

난 너 하나만 생각해
nan neo hanaman saenggakhae

I think only of you
oh 이렇게 난  자꾸만 입 맞추고
oh ireohge nan jakkuman ip majchugo

Like this I sometime just want to kiss you

말해! 뭐해?, 말해! 뭐해? 
malhae! mwohae?, malhae! mwohae?

Tell me, what are you doing?
이러다가 바보처럼 한눈팔게 하지 말고
ireodaga babocheoreom hannunpalge haji malgo

Please don’t just avoid me by looking at somewhere else like a fool like that
말해볼래, 말해볼래 
malhaebollae, malhaebollae

Will you tell me?
나의 맘에 담긴 사람 you are my only one
naui mame damgin saram you are my only one

The one in my heart you are my only one

oh 내 모든 게 서툴다 해도 
oh nae modeun ge seotulda haedo

Though everything I do is clumsy
네 곁에 나 머물고만 싶어지는 게
ne gyeote na meomulgoman sipeojineun ge

I just want to stay with you
사랑일까 사랑일 거야
sarangilkka sarangil geoya

Is that love? yes it is love
너의, 너의 남자 되고 싶어
neoui, neoui namja doego sipeo

I want to be your man

말해! 뭐해?, 말해! 뭐해? 
malhae! mwohae?, malhae! mwohae?

Tell me, what are you doing?
내게 오는 사랑은 그대라는 이름인걸 
naege oneun sarangeun da geudaeraneun ireumingeol

I believe the one that come to me is you
말해! 뭐해?, 말해! 뭐해? 
malhae! mwohae?, malhae! mwohae?

Will you tell me?
나의 맘에 담긴 사람 you are my only one
naui mame damgin saram you are my only one

The one in my heart you are my only one

keep that faith going on...

When we were young, we were thinking how great it is to just grow up.
Being a kid at home, thinking how great it is to go to school, wearing smart uniforms.
Being primary schooler, thinking how great it is to get to secondary school, to join school activities and mingle with other schools' student.
Being secondary schooler, thinking how great it is to join university, to have odd study hours and long breaks.
Being varsity student, thinking how great it is to join workforce, to escape from lectures and exam.
Being in the workforce, thinking how great it is to create our own family, to enjoy the care of our spouse and kids livening the life.
Being in a family, thinking how great to have the kids just grow up, to escape the monotonous kids' student life and worrying about them.

Then when we have finally grow old, we wondered where our life have been.
Some may have been wise enough to enjoy the process of their life and hence either planned ahead or just learn to appreciate things happening to them.
Some may have been struggling throughout their life, not knowing what will happen next, and just continue to stumble on.

Were we being taught wisely enough?
Were we just follower or leader of our own life?

Had we think thoroughly what we want in our life?
Had we act on what we thought we want?

Don't just sit and whine.
Don't just envy and weep.

We all have our own path to walk, and though we may not see the whole path set out for us, yet, but that doesn't mean we should just stop and wait for the next sign to appear. We could have just continue to walk and keep a lookout for the next sign. Keep on walking and keep that faith going on.

Happy Mother's Day

Happy Mother's Day to all Moms!!!
It's a day to be reminded of our mothers, whether it's good memories or bad memories, mums are still mums. Nothing can change that.
We gotta admit that not all mums are great and good, but overall, we just want to appreciate the good things that they do or did, be it as benevolent as sacrificing her life for her child, or as simple as giving a praise to her child.

Well, this also makes me wonder, if we have been thinking what is our calling in life?
Being a mum, I guess it's quite clear - which is her family and children. Or so I think.

What's yours truly?

Mayday

We are now heading into the fifth month of the year.
Some may have been counting down the days, while some may be quite surprised to see how time slips away.
For me, it is actually both. Which means I am literary counting my days and find it unbelievable that where has the time gone to.

What have we been doing throughout the past four months? What special and meaningful things have you done? Which milestone have you reached? What have you accomplished so far?
Reflecting back my four months, there are many little things that I have done. But to be truly meaningful and be part of my milestone, that I still need to seriously think on it.

We all still have another two months to go before we mark the end of mid year 2016. Half gone and half to go.