Monday, June 29, 2015

everything will be ok

Saw an interesting quote posted in FB by a friend - "Everything will be ok in the end. If it's not ok then it's not the end."
How many of us do not face a problem or two, now and then, if not frequent?
How do you handle it?

Sometimes, in midst of our problem, we tend to feel the need to find strength to face the problem.
If it is only a small problem which can be solved with a snap of fingers, of course we wouldn't worry much (that doesn't sounds like a problem at all).
But if it is something bigger that what we anticipated, something we have no idea how to solve, something out of our control - keep calm first.
For, we all know that God wouldn't put hurdles that we can't crossed. But first and foremost, we must try to cross it. You cannot expect standing in front of the hurdle, thinking it will go away, when in fact, you should be thinking whether to jump over it, to crawl under it or to walk around it. No one is able to move the body and the mind of yours, except for you, yourself.
The hurdle might be small, might be big; might be short, might be long; might be easy, might be hard - to cross. But when the hurdle is put in front of you, it's for you to think and work it out on solving it.

If you need the strength to carry on, why not just remember the quote - "Everything will be ok in the end. If it's not ok then it's not the end."
Keep it up!

Saturday, June 27, 2015

FIV (7)

There goes another visit, which was yesterday.
This round is also a quick one, which ended up with medication of oestrogen for the next 10 days.
Boy, the next visit might be a crucial once as decision will be made on the next visit.
Gotta cross my fingers.

lessons about letting go (3)

An article sparks my interest on lessons about letting go - an article from a columnist, SEJ. It says that apart from material possessions, learning to let go of our emotional baggage is good for the soul. Carrying the historical emotional baggage prevent us from living a complete life. And, healing begins with a forgiving heart. That is real freedom.

You might think letting go is not hard, but it is only when you faced the same issue again and being frustrated or hurt, that means you have not let it go.
How do we let go of our emotional baggage?
Take a deep breathe, recognize it, confront it and let it go. It may not be easy, but it is not something impossible to do. Sometimes, you just have to face the issue head on, if not, the thoughts will still linger on, and so will the scar. Covering it up does not do any good, nor will it go away on its own. It will still keep coming back to you, in one way or another. So, instead of facing it numerous times, why not solve it once and for all.
Just remember, though it is not easy, it is not impossible either.

You might think letting go is hard, but when you faced the same issue again and find that you no longer feel annoyed or sad , that means you have let it go.
And when that time comes, you will find yourself happier than before and is able to enjoy your life even more. And who knows, you might even able to help those around you who are still carrying their baggage around.
Just remember, when you have actually went through the hurdle, nothing else will be too hard to cross.

Sunday, June 21, 2015

Something fishy

Finally completed my second FISH! book. Bought it at BBW expo this year, when last year from the same expo, I bought my very first FISH! book.
Though it is not the latest edition in store (what do you expect with this kind of real deal), but I am glad I did not miss out the book after all.

This kind of book is one of my favourite reading. Sometimes, we are so preoccupied with our own world that we have lose focus on other more important things around us.
They might be the one that give us a tug and a wake up call, when we are lost in the world out there.
They might be the additional brainchild that give us a lead on where to start or how to continue, when we only know where we want to be.

So, after these two books, maybe it is time for me to start something fishy, too.

Do you want to fish, too?!

Saturday, June 13, 2015

baby hatch

Saw an article in Facebook just now, on a post "Finally Baby Hatch is in Malaysia".
Not sure if it's a good news or not, but guess it serves both.

Good thing about it, there will be less babies being abandoned like unwanted thing. Some babies are simply being abandoned inhumanly, and ended up lifeless. Maybe their parents are left with no choice, but to abandon their child, simply not knowing what else they can do. Maybe their parents just do not want to carry the responsibility or simply to scared to do so. If so, this is actually something good, a way for the babies and the parents to move on with their lives without any attachment from each other.

Bad thing about it, there might be more abandoned babies now. Some may not even bother to think of the consequence of being pregnant as there's a safe way to abandon the baby once it's born, without any legal action to be taken from them. If so, this is actually something bad, as there will be more orphans.

But there are always two sides for everything, pro and con. Hopefully it does more to serve it's pure intention and not to be misused by those ignorant ones.

Every life brought to earth is as precious as yours. Be sure to appreciate other lives like you appreciate yours. Even if you don't appreciate your own, doesn't mean you should not appreciate others'.

disappointed

It was really disappointing.

Well, I was been waiting for this particular reply for weeks, about almost three weeks, since I last agreed on the offer. But I was later informed few days later that the offer is pending approval and the HR will get back to me the following week. I wasn't particular fussy then, as I was still struggling with my own stuff, so I did not persist further. But one week after another, there is no update at all.

Then finally, I send another reminded the HR on the status update, as the agreed date is getting nearer and I might need to do some preparation ahead, as I am only left with two days. Sadly, still no reply and I finally pick up the phone and call her yesterday. Luckily manage to get her (I was wondering is she's on long leave that she did not manage to read my mail). But the reply I received is quite disappointing.

What I am very disappointed at is not because the offer is still pending approval, but the fact that the HR did not bother to update me at all. Imagine what would have happened, if I just turn up on the agreed date, and having to turn me away on the spot. I hold verbal agreement the same level as black and white agreement, but now I realized that nobody do so here. And sad to know that this pending of approval may even backfire the offer as top management has not even given greenlight on the budget or resource allocation.

And adding to another disappointment is my hunter is actually one step behind me. Maybe I should not count on her too much either as I had never asked her in depth on what is her coverage for me.

Anyway, all these makes me think twice having to work together with this company.

Saw two interesting quotes today. And hopefully, for those who are facing disappointments as I do can get some perks for the day.

"It's better to know and be disappointed, then to never know and always wonder"

"Disappointments are just God's way of saying "I've got something better." So be patient, have faith and live your life"

FIV (6)

Finally the next visit is here again, after a full 21 days.
And yesterday visit was just a short one, as usual. But luckily we get to know in advance on the up-coming schedules, else it might be a mess again. *wink*
Well, just got an injection and wait for the next cycle to begin.

As for the up-coming schedules, two more usual visits which I suspect will be having either meds or injections (again), and third visit is for the blood test, while the fourth one (hopefully get to proceed) is for putting in the embryo. Surprisingly, it is using two months to complete this. May we have good news by then *cross my fingers*

Wednesday, June 10, 2015

cameron

Guess what? Family trip this year is to Cameron! Last family trip was to Desaru, which we have went twice.
It is good to have this kind of yearly gathering, with all taking time off and relax among the families. Though most of the time, there will definitely be frustrating times, i.e. on confirming travelling date, when making booking arrangements on accommodation and transport, on deciding where to eat, on keeping track on schedule, on getting the kids ready and etc. Still, this is the only other "full" gathering we will do, once a year.

But sad to say, I have to opt out from this trip, due to an unavoidable appointment which falls exactly in the middle of the trip. I was so devastated, as, this is one of the trip I look forward to, it is among the places I have not been before, I do not need to take any leave for the trip, the appointment is not being well informed much, much earlier. Even though I was informed three weeks prior to the trip, but all things are almost arranged, and because of the late information, I have to bow out from the trip. It is really kind of disappointing, not only on the missed trip, but also because no empathy shown from mike.

Next thing we know, Jayd seems to have ulcers and there's suspicion on having HFMD, but need to further confirm. This news was updated like four days prior to the trip. Luckily there is enough time for the doctor to confirm, because if HFMD, definitely not able to go as it is contagious and easily spread to other kids. But luckily, things seem to be alright, as things are proceeding.

After that is dad, suddenly on suspicion of having dengue, after he went to see the doctor on his headache the night before. And this is known three days prior to the trip. As they are travelling one day earlier to meet up in KL, so he is rushed to the hospital, supposedly to get blood test to confirm. But ended up with normal checking and the doctor mentioned that for dengue case, body temperature will be high, with or without medicine, and also there will be vomiting and red rashes. But luckily, after one day of monitoring, do not see anything unusual.

Then early morning today, it is mum's turn, having hit by car park barrier, right on the head. Maybe her mind is full of thoughts this morning, that cause her not to notice on the barrier. But hopefully the barrier is those light-weight kind and only causes her some pain which will go away soon.

After that is Jam, whom forgot to change currency for the trip and it is too late, as she is also travelling one day earlier prior to the trip. But hopefully, it is still manageable, if the others have more to spare.

Lastly, is a more recent news, Jah got caught up in an accident. Not much details were informed as of now, as they are going to report the case. Hopefully, it is just a minor traffic accident with no much damage and no injuries.

Boy, all five families seem to be taking turn having "issues" that might hinder the trip. Jayr is actually quite worried, as we both noticed these "symptoms" popping out now and then. Well, as the trip is proceeding, we can only pray for the best, and be on our tiptoe.

There will be sunshine after the rain.

Thursday, June 4, 2015

Adios - last message

Finally, the day has arrived, after the long wait. It's finally my turn to bid farewell to fellow comrades.
And as expected, it was indeed a busy day. Don't know whether it is because of the work nature or my own working nature. History does indeed repeats, but luckily not exactly the same.

Also worked over working hours, but luckily just extra 2.5 hours only, not all the way to midnight. But sadly did not manage to save all my emails, left this year's email did not manage to salvage. But luckily cleared my pc folders yesterday. And glad that there are still people for me to say goodbye to, and not leaving with the office having no one.
I guess most of the important people have bid me farewell, like my first interviewer, my department manager, my lunch mates, etc, so I'm still ok. Though there are few downlines which I've missed out, as time is simply too short today, after minus out first half day of guiding plus 2.5 hours meeting.

The best things happen today - my arranged lunch mates, my farewell mails, my photo with my assistants, and my hand shakes before leaving.

I think my battery going flat anytime soon. Gotta recharge it. Luckily I have full one week of recharging. And may after the recharge, I can continue to move forward.

Adios!
Goodnight!