Couples

Out of sudden, a thought came across my mine - what have we learnt from our parents?
I believed everyone learnt different things, whether from the good way or the bad way. Some may not even know their parents, but I am sure they would have learn something looking at others' parents.

For me, I think, is about how a couple should be, having a life partner for the rest of your life.
Being a couple doesn't mean you have to stick with each other all the time, yet always have a special time allocated for he/she. Being a couple doesn't mean you have to be doing the same thing together, but always ready to share and ready to hear each other's experience.
Being a couple means you respect and trust what each other is doing, and not to be sceptical or suspicious. Being a couple means you forgive each other's mistake and though might not be forgetten, but you'll not put it in heart and make each other miserable. Being a couple means you share the good and bad, the joys and tears, but never the laments and regrets.
Of course, all these need to be worked together as a couple, and not one party only, else the relationship will still be broken anyhow.

Although I did not learn this through the good way, but still they have taught me, indirectly, how we should be maintaining our relationship as a couple. Though there is nothing much we can do to mend theirs, after all these years, but we can be their listening ears, and hopefully, that can ease their estranged ties a bit, as there ain't much 'ten years' to go.

Falling in love is easy, while maintaining love takes hard work. Always remember the love, and don't let it fade away, as it is love that brings us together, and it will be love that binds us together.

Counting down

Counting down four days, till the last day of my working day in GC. Time flies, especially for these last two weeks.
Coincidentally, lots of people are leaving around the same period of time, one by one, makes it more nostalgia.

Happy of leaving? Yes, indeed, I do not deny. Yet, I also cannot deny that there were many happy days as well and memories built for the past three to four years. There were also many good relationships built. Apart from that, of course, are those valuable lessons taught and learnt, advice given and received.
What would be the best memory? I couldn't pinpoint one, as there seem to be a few.
My first year in, I enjoyed my lunch hours and the birthday celebrations. My second year, I enjoyed teaching those downlines (though not all) and festival meals. My third year, I enjoyed going for k-sessions. My last year, I enjoyed my own farewells (together with the close ones whom are leaving with me).

Why do I need to leave then? Why not continue to stay on?
I guess, because of the negative vibes that have been building on, of all these years. And because I know it has reach my maximum limit and I am not able to handle any further, of the accumulated negativity, so, the only way out for me is to get myself out of it.

Should those left behind, continue to strive? Yes, of course.
There are many things to learn there, and there are many opportunities to grow, if you know how to grab the chance. Be always ready for opportunity that may come knocking at your door, anytime.
Well, though we are all aware that working place is not a teaching school, but still, we all yearn that we can be nurtured in the correct way. We are all trying to grow up and strive hard, in whatever stages we are. So, do show that there are great leaders to follow and environment to stay on.

learn by doing, not being taught

Came across a very interesting video just now. It is about how a lady taught her child by learning how to do, instead through verbal teaching.

It is true that in this generation era, we are being taught how things work, and how things should be done. But to truly understand the teaching, not sure how many of us do. And without these teaching, not sure how many of us would think of exploring the outside world in order to learn it up.
Unlike the previous era where things are limited, and in order to get something or to do something new, people tend to crack their heads and make full use of their imagination.
And maybe because the older era feel that they need to pass down the information learnt, so, they start to "teach" on what they know.
Maybe it is just the way of "teaching" that went wrong, that most of the new generation got used to "spoon-feeding" teaching. We think that we are letting information being passed down, but forget the ultimate reason what these information need to pass down.Letting the newer generation to learn is correct. But we forget to emphasize on the need to do the things they have learnt.

I think it is kinda similar to an old proverb - give a man a fish, and you feed him for a day; teach a man to fish, and you feed him for  a lifetime.
So a person need to "fish" in order to get the fish.

FIV (5)

Finally, D4 is here, so another visit to the doc. But update from the doc, caught me by surprise.

This round, we are only on medication. So, the real FET process is to be on the next cycle. Dumbfounded, because the next visit clashes with my Cameron trip. A bit devastated, as it is a family trip that I always longed to go. Though sometimes during the trip there might be some squabbles now and then, nevertheless, it will be one of those good memories to talk about down the road.

So, no choice, I got to give up the trip, but hopefully I get to join the rest for the pre-trip gathering at KL. The is the least that I can do, and to enjoy myself before start of my new found job.

Back to topic. So, right now, nothing much to do, just daily medication, until the next visit for a shot. And am still blur on what the doc has in plan for us. I feel like a floating boat, not knowing where I am heading, only now and then there will be some tugging to lead the boat in a mysterious way.

Still, this also means that I have extra one month's time to build up my body. That's the good thing of it. Guess, no pain, no gain.

Till next visit.

FIV (4)

Finally, came 13-May, the revelation day of our "harvest". Good news is that 67% successful! So, it's just up to us when is the next visit we want to come, as long as it is between the second and fourth day of a new cycle. And the next time we go, it will be a FET session.

Just read up a bit on FET, apparently it is supposed to be less intense than the fresh cycle. But still need to follow up with medications or injections, in order to have good uterus lining. Though not sure will do it directly the next cycle or do it after that, but hopefully it will be successful.

FIV (3)

9-May, the day is here, for the retrieval, after all the injections and fasting needed. A bit scary though it should be a painless procedure, as anesthetic will be given. After a quick briefing and few minutes wait, the process begun. I can't believe that I am practically knock out after given anesthetic. The next moment I open my eyes, it has all done, and I have actually sleep through the last 2 hours plus.
After waking up, then is following up with the doctor. Unfortunately, we are told that we cannot proceed with the transfer, as the blood test result showed that it is not a suitable time yet. So, need to wait for the next cycle.

I guess, as the Chinese proverbs, man proposes but God disposes, God's plan will always supersede ours.

So, until the next visit, it will be just on medication, as there might be some discomfort after the retrieval process. And next visit will reveal more what are the next steps to be taken. We can only look forward to that.

FIV (2)

The journey continues ...

Came 5-May was the third visit, and this round, two injections to be done daily. But one injection is having mixing steps (3B+2G), while the other is pre-prepared. And the pre-prepared was actually the same kind of thicker syringe needle. Alright, it is only two days anyway. Just grit the teeth and get on with it.

7-May is the forth visit, though out of expectation, but I guess it might be for monitoring purposes. So this round just one more injection for tonight and also on the blood withdrawal for checking. Then tomorrow midnight to start fasting. Saturday is one of the big day.

As the day is drawing near, there are mixed emotions. Full of wonder, hope, question, unsure, and etc. But I guess, sometimes when we feel lost, we just need to take a step and let the step to lead us. Then maybe, after the leading, we will sort of be able to continue along the journey, to reach our destination. Better than not moving at all, hoping for miracle to happen to have us fall on our destination.

neo gwi yeob da @ 너 귀엽다 @ you are so cute

Found the song MV to be super cute.
Lyrics for "You Are So Cute" by Kenji Wu and Song Ji Hyo


너 귀엽다
You are so cute
遇见你的第一眼
Seeing you at first sight
너 귀엽다
You are so cute
第一句爱的箴言
First word of love perception


*
一开时我没发现
Did not notice at first
天使降临在身边
An angel befall next to me
第一句台词是哎哟我的天
First word is Oh my God

耳朵红到了脚尖
Ear redden till the tip
还要假装看不见
Still need to fake ignorance
应该没人听到我的呼吸声
Should be no one can hear my breathing sound

是谁的喘气声
Whose panting sound
喘的那么认真
Panting so seriously
隔壁那个男生
The guy beside me
难道他也和我有相同感觉
Does he also have the same feeling as I


**
너 귀엽다
You are so cute
遇见你的第一眼
Seeing you at first sight
너 귀엽다
You are so cute
第一句爱的箴言
First word of love perception
너 귀엽다
You are so cute
直到白发苍苍还是觉得
Until the hair is gray still feels that
너 귀엽다
You are so cute


Repeat set *
Repeat **


Repeat **

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Got those lyrics from https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6y9WVE_StmE
But english translation by myself!  ;)

commitment

How do we commit ourselves to something?
Time, energy, resolution and determination.
Never give up until the hurdle is crossed.

Sometimes, we thought that we only need to think on what we want to do and start doing it. However, this kind of light thinking, may only give you the sparks to start but not for long. We all need to commit in doing something, then only there will be progression, then only will it bear the fruit.

Time and energy is a must, while resolution and determination cannot be left out in the process as well. How can things be done without effort being poured out. Nothing happens perfectly with a snap of fingers. We are all just mere human. So, take effort in doing things you want.

That's where everyone is different. The effort and commitment each holds.

Give is a thought. Nothing comes easy. If thing comes easily, it will hardly be appreciated. That's why life is tough. You can be tough, too!

FIV (1)

I have decided to keep track of my journey, regardless of the result.
The start and the journey is as important as the destination.
The start requires courage and decisiveness.
The journey requires will and endurance.
The destination requires faith.

But what prompts the start? It all started about 2 years ago, but the initial thought was not about having kids or not. Just the monthly torments that I have decided to try to stop it, by using the modern medical method. I have been using the traditional method, various ways. But maybe because of the non-committed attitude, there ain't much vast improvements.
And subsequently, it somehow linked back to having kids may solve the issue, so unknowingly, that is when the initial thoughts and hope begins.

As those months passed by, we decide to give a shot of trying the last resort. Why not? After all the feedback we have gotten, there should not be any problem, yet, we don't know what went wrong or missing. No harm trying other method instead of following the sequence, which also guarantees nothing.
So, when came 25-Apr, as the new cycle begins, we held on to our decision.

26-Apr was when things begin to start officially, which I almost wavered. But luckily, we stood to our decision. So, the first visit then was to get an injection daily until the next visit. Sounds easy, though there are few mixing steps (3B+1G), but not hard to remember, and it is just prickly pain, as the syringe needle is kind of thin and short. And luckily not much expected side effects.

29-Apr is second visit, where this round, there are three injections to be done daily, with only one injection need mixing (2B) while the other two are pre-prepared. And with one of the syringe needle is thicker and long. Well, just need to bear with it for six days. Not sure if it's my imagination, but I feel that body is reacting good to it.

Till the next visit...

Love

Ever wonder why most of the dramas or movies or songs are based on love?
Not all like those kind of drama, movie or songs.
Some may find it mushy because of those lovey-dovey scenes while some may find it boring or old-fashioned because of the predictable scenes or lyrics.
But surprisingly, most would actually loved in, unknowingly.

Love can actually be in many kind of forms, which sometimes, we ourselves are not able to distinguish it.
The thing that would touched our heart, make lasting memories, bring tears into our eyes, that's love.
The world can be a much better place to live in, if we all have a heart of love.
Of course, undeniable that there are other factors to consider of.
But with love, almost everything would be possible.

With love, there will be no pollution.
With love, there will be no racism.
With love, there will be no war.
With love, there will be hope.
With love, there will be strength.
With love, there will be tomorrow.

Love while you can.
Though not everyone can do it the easy way, some may need to take the harder way.
Love will not give up on you, just don't give it up first.