Sunday, September 25, 2011

hope is a dream that never sleeps

Hope is a dream that never sleeps ..  That's a song title that I'm listening right now. With hope, can we really pursue our dream till the end?

Life is really full of ups and downs, right? I'm now in one of its roller coaster rides. Sometimes the speed is so slow where you tend to take things for granted, but sometimes when the speed pick up, you can hardly knew what's going on. Sometimes you are rushing from the bottom to the top, yet sometimes you are being send from top to bottom in a blink of an eye. There are also times when you feel like you are just going round and round in circles when no ending point.

But, there's a phrase that is really true - you harvest what you planted. Things happened today are because of what you've planned yesterday. You can't keep on procrastinating. Things have to start off somewhere or somehow. You have to preserve till the end in things you have started. Only then you'll be able to see the outcome of it. And no matter what the result may be, it is definately good because you made an effort for it and never given up along the way. Only with thing that is hard to come by, you're able to appreciate more of it.

No wonder they said living ain't easy, but if you get to live thru it, you'll definately love it.

Friday, September 16, 2011

environmental pressure

Starting out in a new environment, does give us environmental pressure, doesn't it? Or so that I'ld prefer to call it.

It is common that when we are in a family, we might get siblings pressure or parents pressure, as alike with among our friends, we get peer pressure. Though peer pressure is a much common word to be used, guess it is because we want to highlight certain bad influence from some. But it seems to me that all these can be categorized as environmental pressure.
Things are always happening around us, or had happened prior to us having need to deal with it. Therefore, there are always people trying to tell us, or rather, influence us in handling things in their own way. In a good way, this is to avoid the similar mistake to be done, or to reduce any inefficiency. However, on the other hand, that make us not having the first hand experience on how to deal with that particular situation. This is something every subjective though.

Apart from all those external environmental pressure, we still need to face our inner thoughts. Though most of the time, the inner self is just having war between itself and the external self, which is dealing with the environmental. The inner self would be just thinking from own perspective.

In life there will be a few times or more, where huge changes in life are unavoidable. One, when one step into the college or university life. Two, when one step into working life and lastly, when one step into family life. These are part of our stages in life, too.
When others share their experience with us, it is mostly for our own benefits. To let us know which turning is right, which is wrong, and which step to be taken is faster or better. However, the point lies in, each and everyone of us is different. Things worked out for A, might not work out for B, and might have different result for C. Their intention might be good, but might not be tailor-made for you.
This is what I felt now, environmental pressure.

It has been one month now. One month plus six days to be exact, after stepping into the new environment. It was excited at first but as time goes on, things doesn't seems to be easy as I thought it would be. Every single day that passed seems to drain my energy away. If only sleep was well. Plus now, I'm facing family pressure, giving their negative thoughts about it.
After my first week there, I knew things aren't going to be easy. But I would just like to hang on there. I believe things happen for a reason (or maybe I'm just lazy to think of better way out) and had always truly believe that things will turn out well no matter what.
My thought is always to do well on tasks given to me, no matter what task it is. Even if I really can't do it well, I would still rather give a shot first and if it fails, that would be another story. There are also some out there that would rather create their own world and rule, then had people following them, which don't really seems wrong either.

However, now I am still struggling, from the sleepless night, the expectation held, and the pressure given. Why can't we think things in an optimistic way or encouranging way? Why do people always have to start off in a negative way? Sometimes, what we need is not an opinion, but rather just an encouraging word, to allow us to take the step we had always wanted to try to take.

p/s: do note that I'm not saying about bad habits or sinister doings that should be experienced with. Things that bring harm to others are totally forbidden and out of this context. I don't believe that by bringing harm to others will bring joy to ownself or own group of people. Everyone on the earth has its own living value.